Rise, Shine & Thrive ~ Week 1
Super grateful for my here & now!
I feel more clarity than I have in a REALLY long time! But my gratitude springs from my past. My past was REALLY hard…like there were sOoO many moments when I didn’t know how I would get to the next moment and there were many moments when I didn’t want to get to the next moment. And OMF’nGoodness…I am sOoO glad I made it through each moment that led me to my today…to my here and my now.
DUGS has been giving me clues for the longest and I didn’t even peep it until today when the picture was revealed to me. It wasn’t even a picture as much as it was a knowing…no…an understanding. Hmph…that’s rich.
So I realized today it’s time to rise, shine, and thrive. Like legit…Erika Lynn…get the FUCK up…yes…I said it…the whole word…no $&^#&^%(^ or abbreviations…get the FUCK up ERIKA LYNN!?!?
It’s time to rise…
I also realized a part of me died in September 2021 when I had the week of episodes of the Conversion Disorder. And after processing yesterday earlier today…it hit me…I literally can no longer life the way I always lived pre September 2021. It’s like I knew it but I thought maybe I could just keep trying like my pattern suggested. That’s been the story of my life…try to make something that isn’t working work. There is a way…if I just _________ it’ll work. Idk what that _________ is and I’ll spend a lifetime trying to figure out what it is until something bigger and greater literally stops me. Growing up “the stop” showed up/manifested in a myriad of ways but Conversion Disorder was the biggest stop of my life to date. The last stop killed a part of me and I’ve spent the last 3 years and almost 2 months trying to resurrect that part of me. I REFUSED to acknowledge let alone accept that death of me.
I remember the ceremonial death I facilitated a couple few months after completing the ‘Heroine’s Journey’ program with ummm….Rachel. It felt like nothing, I thought like I thought with most things that I’d messed it/done it wrong, I felt stupid for thinking another thing would be that thing that changed my life.
But today I feel within the reverence for that ceremony I facilitated. I see me today in a way I’ve never seen me before. I see that it is I who has done this to me. And I am open, ready, and willing to set myself free. I am ready thrive.
This new blog, “Rise, Shine & Thrive” is my story. I am no longer suffering, I am no longer the victim, I am surrendering the narratives of me that create pain, poverty, and limits in my life. I am ready to be the light and share the light. It is possible.
I surrender the how and step into my power wholly and fully with and on purpose!
